Had a dream that I hung out with an oooooooold female crush in Colorado. For some reason I was several feet in the sky and we were sharing some kind of cookie, but she was on the ground. I would bungie down to get a piece as we’d converse. She was farming some kind of mushroom at the same time (rare and valuable mushroom), and at some point the dream shifted into a romantic foray leading to her hotel room. As her and I were kissing and headed towards the bed my mouth swelled with saliva and shot like a burst fire hydrant at her as I rushed for the bathroom. As I exited the bathroom, some 80s cartoon character villain came out and it was insinuated she was a call girl for him (at the behest of her father who was also there). After a duel with Naginatas (or dagger shuriken) he was killed. At some point in time I was on her Wikipedia and it said she killed herself in that same hotel later on. For some reason, I was still in the hotel and her phone was by the stand. I picked it up and browsed it to find she was a massive fan (like unhealthy) of Link from legend of Zelda and idolized his hero archetype while some hardcore music was playing intensely in the background. She was also invisible on steam and I scrolled through the simp messages
There are many different elements in this dream, so let's break it down piece by piece.
Firstly, the fact that you are hanging out with an old female crush in Colorado could represent a desire for a deeper connection with someone from your past. This could be an indication of unresolved feelings or unfinished business between you and that person.
The act of sharing a rare and valuable mushroom suggests a shared interest or deep connection between you and this person. However, the fact that you are on different planes (you are in the sky, while she is on the ground) could suggest that there are differences in your perspectives or attitudes.
The sudden shift to a romantic foray leading to her hotel room could represent a desire for intimacy or closeness with this person. However, the fact that your mouth swells with saliva and shoots like a fire hydrant at her suggests that there may be some anxiety or fear around this intimacy.
The appearance of an 80s cartoon character villain and the suggestion that your crush is a call girl could represent a fear of sabotage or external forces that threaten your connection with this person. The duel with Naginatas could represent a desire to protect your relationship or connection with this person.
The fact that you later discover on her Wikipedia page that she killed herself in the same hotel could be a representation of your fear or anxiety around loss and abandonment.
Lastly, the fact that she idolizes Link from Legend of Zelda and has a lot of simp messages could represent a desire for a hero or savior figure in your life. It could also represent a fear that your crush has unrealistic expectations or obsessive tendencies.
Overall, this dream suggests a complex mixture of desire, anxiety, and fear around a past crush or relationship. It may be worth exploring these feelings in therapy or through journaling to gain a deeper understanding of what they represent for you.